Exhaustion is trying to stake its claim on me (I have been run ragged emotionally and physically since Thursday evening), but rage, frustration and upset are doing a good job at keeping me going. Add some disappointment to the mix, and I’m all set for whiling away precious hours of sleep, which I’m going to sorely regret in the morning when the alarm clock goes off at 8:30am (SHIT, do I really have to be awake in five hours?!).
What’s going on in my life right now is something I may go public about, sometime soon. We just need to get all of our ducks in a row, so to speak. In the meantime, I’ll probably be updating frequently with protected entries. Those entries are only viewable if you are a registered AND approved member of jenn.nu. If you’re not registered, or registered but not approved, you’ll get a 404 page if you access a permalink that leads to a protected entry. I’m sorry to keep out the general public, but it’s personal and involves family. No offense is meant, but screening those who can read these protected entries right now is a must.
At the moment I’m disappointed and disgusted with Dan. Between his work schedule and running around dealing with what’s going on in life right now, I haven’t really spent any time with Dan since last Wednesday. I slept besides him for an hour and a half on Friday morning, slept beside him again Friday night/Saturday morning, kissed him goodbye Saturday morning and then Saturday evening, and that was about it. He went to his brothers’ apartment on Saturday night so that he could sleep over and then go with them and a friend to Six Flags on Sunday.
That’s fine, except that he never came home on Sunday evening. He never called or texted. I found out secondhand, from Jason on MSN around midnight and Dan’s brother at 2am, that Dan was too busy getting drunk and singing karoake to bother coming home to his wife. Obviously he was in no condition to drive, so Dan’s brother took him back to his apartment, and will drive him to his car later this morning.
After the last few days, I can’t tell you guys how much I was looking forward to Dan being home tonight. I stressed this to him in personal several times, in a phone call and through a few text messages Sunday morning and afternoon.
So right now? I’m furious and really upset and hurt. This is just the icing on the cake with everything else that is going on, and I do NOT appreciate it. Not bothering to show up is shitty, and then not even bothering to CALL or TEXT to let me know is just super shitty. Jason said Dan’s cell phone died. Fine, I believe it; I have the same phone and the battery life isn’t worth shit. But he could have easily asked to borrow his brother’s cell phone, his brother’s girlfriend’s cell phone, Jason’s cell phone, the bar’s phone, or went out to a pay phone. Where there’s a will, there’s a way.
Ugh. Now I’m tired. I’m still dealing with raging emotions that range from frustration to despair, and I have cried and want to cry some more, but I need to sleep. I have to be up in less than five hours.
P.S. I started out this blog entry with nothing to really say. Funny how that turned out!
I agree with you, Dan really does need to be there for you now more than ever. I think you need to have a talk with him about this. *hugs*
I don’t know what’s going on since I’m not registered or approved, but I hope things work out. I’ve been praying for you.
I’m about to register now, but seeing as you don’t know me at all, I understand if you don’t approve me.
*hugs*
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I’m sorry you’re going through such a rough time and aren’t feeling supported by your husband, that must be really horrible. I hope thing start looking up for you soon.
Wow, I’m really sorry that your Sunday ended up like that. Even if Dan was stressed out or scared about whatever is going on, that’s no excuse for him to act the way he did. I hope that he apologizes and realizes he was wrong. He needs to be there for you and the entire family in your time of need, not go out partying with his friends. I’m sorry, Jenn. *hugs*
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I’m sorry all of this is happening Jenn. Maybe if you tried sitting down and talking to Dan he maybe a bit more supportive. You definitely need him at times like these.
Keep your head up girl, you’re a wonderful person that does wonderful things for people. *hugs*.
nothing is worse than dealing with someone who doesn’t even reach out to communicate to you when you care about them. hang in there.
uGH. I already knew what was going on but I just took the time to read back through the private updates to learn the current news. Stuff like this just infuriates me. You really shouldn’t be having to go through this.
And Dan, COME ON MAN! I know that maybe he needed a day away to let lose and not have to deal with the stuff but to not call or anything? Totally not cool. I’d be pretty upset too since he should really be the one person you can count on at times like this.
Stay strong, Jenn. *hug*
Well, people make mistakes. It doesn’t seem like this is something he does often, so I’d try to cut him a little slack. Up to you, though!
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I’m not sure I’m signed up for private entries anymore, I need to do that. I have no clue what’s going on anymore. Regardless, I don’t care if you are stressed over something as simple as a hangnail, not calling or showing up at home is just not right. He could opted not to drink at all and came home to his wife. Sorry Dan, it’s not really my right to judge, but I wouldn’t put up with that. Kevin’s shit would have been outside and he could have taken a nice vacation from me if he disregarded me that much.
I have been going through a similar situation with my hubby and I him being oblivious to my needs too. I can understand the frustration. a good talking will help. I was in your place a few days ago and didn’t know whether to blog about it or what. so moral of the story is I know where you are coming from and I am always here for you if you need to chat.
Very sorry you are having such a rough time. I do not know what is going on in your personal life, as I am not registered to read the protect posts. I hope Dan has realized how craptastic it was for him to pull such a stunt- drunk or not. Wish there was something I could do to help, but if you ever need to vent- I’m here!
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I just wanna know how my name gets drug into your husband’s screwup
I may have been sitting next to him at the bar telling him to grow some balls and drink the drink in front of him. But, I made it home last night 