I’m TRYING to answer the dozens (literally) of unanswered questions that have been piling up since mid-July, but it’s kind of hard to do, seeing as how every two questions I get redirected to a WordPress-generated 404 page or a 500 internal server error page. What gives, WordPress? You’re up to date, and your plugins are up to date, so stop fucking around start working. PLEASE. What should have only taken me fifteen or twenty minutes has taken over an hour. Grrr!
Today I came to the conclusion that I could walk away from the town I live in without a backward glance. I was talking to a woman who is also originally from Philadelphia, and also is not too fond of where we are at now. It’s so bland here. So vanilla. So boring. So routine, so close-minded and conservative I could just scream with boredom and frustration. About the only things I love are the peace and quiet. And the safety. That is very important, and something I value.
You know, I have been here for almost twelve years. I’ve experienced so many firsts here. I went to high school here. I learned how to drive here. I met Daniel here, got to know him and build our relationship with him here. Conceived and had our children here. Said goodbye to both of my grandparents here. Bought a home here.
But I could seriously walk away from it all, with probably very little in the way of regret or longing. Just as I am so done with Philadelphia, despite being born there and living there until I was thirteen.
It’s Pittsburgh that I miss. Yes, a lot of the hold the city has over me has to do with my fond memories of living with Dan before we started a family. But I love the city itself, its landscape, its various nooks and crannies, all of the interesting features and unique elements that are packed together in the southeastern corner of Pennsylvania.
Someday… maybe. I told Dan that I’d love to move to Pittsburgh permanently, and I meant it. I know that now isn’t a good time, especially with the kids being so young and Ryan just getting set up with the agencies that will help him in school and here at home. But the idea of packing up everything and everyone and moving to Pittsburgh ten or even five years from now sounds SO appealing. You have no idea. I just don’t know if we’d actually be able to follow through with it. The idea of moving, and going such a distance, finding somewhere new to live, a new place to call home, and finding a reliable job for Dan is just so overwhelming. I honestly don’t give it serious thought. Not now, anyway. But who knows what the future may hold.
you’ll probably want to move before the kids start elementary school and make friends… then they won’t want to move
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I know exactly how you feel, except moving may be in my near future. Hopefully you will be able to find that move work for you and your family, especially if it is going to make you happier in the long run!
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