Whats up? Not much here. I think I missed a day somewhere… but its not like it really matters. The days keep rolling in and out for me. Classes today. Ive still got another one at 2:30, then at 4:00 I have a group meeting with my CAS advisor. Going to make an appointment for choosing next years courses. Im probably also going to have to talk about getting my major declared sometime soon. Jenns been scaring me with her baby urges. She even had a dream about it. Nah, its not really scary. I think its cute :) Inappropriate right now, but cute. Shes even been rubbing off on to me a little. Now THATs scary. Im starting to get some content on my website, so things are gonna get more interesting from here on out. Im debating whether I should continue posting in this blog, or make one on my own site. What do you think?
Thats some pretty heavy stuff…But itll be alright. First, your romance novels. I may not really admit it, but yes, I want to be that kind of man for you. I want to sweep you off your feet, be strong for you, and do anything I can to make your life heavenly. But Ive failed. Theyre fantasies for a reason: men like that usually dont exist. Ill try though. I know that our relationship (and any other one, for that matter) cant work on love alone. Ive known that for a while. The thing is, Ive made a committment to you. Even when I was the maddest Ive ever been at you, I could never leave you, because of that promise I made to always be there for you. Not only that, but weve got a plan. It may not be the best plan in the world, but itll work for us. Im not heading into this thinking that everythings going to be rosy and come out alright in the end without having to do anything. Its going to take a lot of hard work and careful planning, and Im willing to do both.
I know I cant heal your trust in me. I made the one mistake that I never should have, and it hurts me so much… All I can do is to never give you another reason not to trust me.
Love may not be everything, but its what makes life a lot more enjoyable. I love you Jennifer.
I forgot this in the other post, but what on earth makes you think youre not attractive?? Youre a goddess compared to most of the skanks around here. Such a beautiful face, with wonderful eyes, a cute little nose, and a stunning smile. When you smile it makes your entire face light up with beauty that I could never find in anyone else. If men want a skinny anorexic looking girl-thing, then they can have em. I really dont think that most men even want women like that. I love your body Jennifer. Youre the most beautiful woman Ive ever known. So soft and warm and comforting :) hehe. I just love the way my arms fit around you when Im hugging you. I know Im just rambling here, but there really isnt any way for me to truly tell you how beautiful and attractive you are, except to just stare into those beautiful steel-grey eyes of yours and tell you, “I love you”.
The site isnt *quite* up yet, only the skeletons there. I need to come up with content. lol. Anyway, today was another boring day. Got up around noon, tried to get online but the network was down, played Diablo II for a few hours then got online and waited for Jenn. I worked on my website a little bit, but like I said theres no content it it right now. Theres other stuff Id like to do too, but Im really just crawling along. At least I didnt have classes today (only one class, really) but Ive got some more homework to do. *grumble* I hate homework. Oh well, Ill try to get some of it done while Jenns at her appointment.