Busy schedule + laziness + not a lot of gas in car = I forgot to pick up some medication refills last Monday. On Friday, I realized I was on day four of no Zoloft. This was a day after the vomiting and nausea began (and fortunately ended), but before the dizziness, lightheadedness, fatigue, and general feeling of “ick” kicked in.
For several weeks now I’ve been tossing around the idea of tapering off of my 100mg daily Zoloft; once I realized I was nearly at day five of a cold turkey I said fuck it, and I’m doing my best to stick it out without caving and running to Target for that prescription refill. But there are things I want to go away, and things I want to come back, that are motivating me to stick out the accidental Zoloft Cold Turkey Situation. If the average withdrawal from this particular SSRI at this particular dose after being on it for about a year is about two weeks, then I’m nearly halfway there, which means my symptoms should, at worse, not get any better – but they shouldn’t get any worse.
Things I want to go away:
- lack of sex drive
- stomach irritation
- quick withdrawal symptoms – by day 3 of a missed dose I’m nauseous and vomiting, and I don’t want to live a life where I’m watching the clock to make sure I get a drug into my system or else risking feeling physically ill
- the associated negative stigma surrounding mental health and people who choose to take an anti-depressant to help manage depression and/or anxiety
Things I want to return:
- feelings — both positive as well as negative — that tip the scales at more than a 3 on a scale of 1-10 (in other words, I’m sick of feeling like I’m on constant mute)
- my sex drive
I’m halfway there now. Cheer me on! Nothing weakens my resolve faster than DAYS of dizziness and vertigo. Fortunately I’m also quite tired and sluggish, so on my “off” time I’ve been napping the time away (sorry, Daniel).
I’m always on the lookout for new places to shop, and new fashion ideas. While I may not always have the budget or the body type to accommodate the places and ideas I find, I nevertheless have quite an extensive list of bookmarks. The newest one I added to my list is Zaful. Zaful promises a huge selection of collections and individual pieces that fashion-forward ladies will love. Zaful focuses on finding and delivering the latest trends, and staying hip, upbeat, and modern – but still keeping classic fashions available as well.
Here are a few Zaful items that I’ve added to my wishlist:
Fancy Lady Sweater – $25.12
I’d pair this with sparkling leggings and my no-shame-in-admitting-to-them-being-knockoffs wannabe-Ugg boots.
Forever ‘Til the End Black Sweatshirt – $36.64
as pictured, I’d wear this with a pair of skinny or bootcut distressed jeans and a pair of hot pink flats.
Broken Hole Skinny Jeans – $35.66
because you can never have too many pairs of jeans!
Tiny Floral Print A-Line Skirt – $22.12
I don’t currently have a top to coordinate with this skirt, but I love its print so much that I’d figure something out.
Starry Pattern Skinny Leggings – $18.52
ugh, MUST. GET. THESE.
Tetris Skinny Leggings – $20.09
AND THESE TOO, because TETRIS!
Platform Chunky Heel Lace-Up Ankle Boots – $30.16
Who doesn’t need a good pair of butt-kicking boots?
In addition to all sorts of clothing (including intimates and swimwear), Zaful also has a pretty decent selection of jewelry (here). I love unique earrings, necklaces, and rings especially, and Zaful’s got it all.
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What started as flank pain shortly after Christmas has slowly evolved into continual low back pain. If I’m lucky, it stays in my lower back. But I’m running short of luck lately, so I’ve had the fun of experiencing both referred nerve pain/discomfort (pains in my shoulders, arm “sockets”, arms extending down to my wrists, hips, and legs; and also right foot numbness) and the associated muscle aches and pains one would have with a spinal fracture AND a retrolithesis of L5 on S1 which also causes nerve pinching. I’m a little embarrassed to admit that about two weeks ago, I broke down and asked Dan to take me to the ER. This was after I had seen the urologist, who sent me back to my PCP, whose lackey (our family physician office is also a teaching one, so we often get a resident rather than an actual physician; also, our particular physician deals with “chronic” patients who have chronic issues, so he is in somewhat high demand and it’s next to never that you can get an appointment with him unless you schedule one at least a week in advance) set me up with a referral to the practice’s networked orthopedic specialists.
I saw the urologist on a Tuesday morning, and my PCP that evening. It was Wednesday night, after eight hours of unanswered messages and unreturned phone calls to the doctor’s office that the pain in my back, left shoulder, and arm “socket” were so bad that I couldn’t take it, so to the damn ER we went. They did a shoulder x-ray to rule out any physical problem, and after the obviously negative results the somewhat abrupt attending ER physician finally listened to me and realized that it was just shitty back pain and a pinched nerve causing the horrible pain. They gave me a shot of Toradol since I can’t take NSAIDs orally (ulcer; also, gastric bypass surgery doesn’t just reduce the size of your stomach to a small pouch – it also reduces the amount of blood flow to it, so even if I didn’t have an active ulcer I still need to steer clear of NSAIDs), which helped a bit, as well as some Tramadol.
I saw the orthopedic specialist last Friday, and she ordered x-rays, didn’t say what all she saw on them, but noted during an extensive physical exam the overall muscle tightness in my back and shoulders, as well as something she has a term for that essentially means the nerves for my left leg are being adversely affected – my left leg is weak, and I wasn’t able to respond effectively to push/pull/lift/strength tests. A couple of days later I saw my PCP (again), and he ordered topical Lidocaine patches. These things are awesome – they don’t take away the pain and muscle tightness completely, but they certainly help!
The orthopedic specialist set me up with an MRI for February 4th, but due to our health insurance company not providing authorization in time, it was pushed to today. I showed up 15 minutes early, but because MONDAY and JUST MY LUCK, the machine was malfunctioning. The tech spent about 30 minutes trying to get it up and running for what would be a 15-minute scan, then gave up and rescheduled me for Wednesday.
So, I continue to bide my time, and deal with this shitty back pain and associated muscle pain and referred nerve pain that makes everything from my kidneys to my bladder to my hips to my arms (right now, my right one) hurt. Whine, bitch, moan. Rinse and repeat. :/
It’s just about to strike midnight on the 31st of December, and you, perhaps giddy off good company and champagne, decide that enough is enough- 2015 is going to be the start of a new, healthy age of wellbeing for you and your figure! Fast forward to the morning and, apart from a painful hangover, the question begins to linger over your par-pickled brain: how am I actually going to go through with this spur-of-the-moment idea? Well, there’s no need to mull over the question any longer- you can become the person you want to be this year and it’s not as difficult as you might initially imagine!
Find Out Your BMI
Body Mass Index (BMI) is a formula used by health professionals that takes your weight (kg), dividing it by your height (metres squared), categorising you in to a number of groups that run from underweight to extremely obese. Finding out this score will allow you to know how much work you have to do, and will give you a baseline from which to measure your future progress.
Make a Diary
No, not about your slow descent into cake-less madness! instead, create a diary of everything you eat during your day, the food’s calorific content and every ounce of exercise you undertake. With this notebook you’ll be able to identify which things are acting as impediments to your goal of living and feeling healthy.
Be Mindful of Portion Sizes
Yes you now might be eating lots of vegetables, fruits and other natural goodies, but if you’re eating a heaped dinner’s plate-full then you’re still going to put on weight no matter how good your intentions are. Look at your plate. Half should be vegetables, a quarter should be carbohydrates, and the final quarter should be reserved for protein. Easy!
Indulge in Online Gaming
Just because you’re on a regimen of sorts doesn’t mean you have to live the Spartan lifestyle, and a beneficial, exciting thing you can do whilst losing weight can be to play games! A slow game of solitaire at worldofsolitaire, games of mahjong that invoke a zen-like feeling in one’s mind from 247mahjong, or even playing online roulette at www.GamingClub.com/au/online-roulette. All of these games, as well as being a lot of fun, which will take your mind off over eating and snacking, an additional benefit of these types of game are that they’ll help keep your brain active and healthy too, a requirement just as important as weight loss itself! Most players of games wherein players can play with and win cash set themselves small limits prior to playing as well- so as not to lose control of their finances- and this setting of limits can be very useful in conditioning your “just say no” attitude when it comes to eating and snacking.
Keep to Mealtimes
Each day have a breakfast that is around 250-350 calories, a 350-450 calorie lunch and a 450-550 calorie dinner- these are estimates because, depending on your body, you may naturally require less or more energy metabolically- and rigidly stick to one snack a day, totalling between 100 and 250 calories.
Dan and I have been spending entirely too much time inside doctors’ offices and hospitals. I would very much enjoy going an entire week without going to a single medical appointment. And yet here I am, the night before yet another endoscopy!