Today was uneventful. I did a little bit of stuff at netrillium.net, and then spent most of the evening adding skins to chewedkandi.net. :whew:
I’m sleepy, but I don’t know if I want to go to bed yet…
Oh! That reminds me. I have an interview tomorrow at 12:00pm at K-Mart. I don’t know how much longer I’ll be staying in Pittsburgh, but in case it is for another few weeks, I might as well make some money, and if they’ll offer more than Target, I’ll go for it. I guess I will go to bed. :yawn: Goodnight!
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I feel better… a bit. Still stressed and hurting and tired and upset and just… everything. :ashamed:
I was very busy with chewedkandi.net. I didn’t get done until well after midnight!
I spent most of the night chatting to Ermina and Cody. I also made $20 for banner advertisement and an MT template for illbethereforyou.com. And finally, I went through helpdesk tickets. :whew: I’m pooped. Goodnight. :heart:
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I think what finally made me break was him saying, “I’m depressed. I don’t want to do anything but sit here in front of the TV and sleep. And I can blame you for that too.” You can’t put so much guilt on someone like that without realizing they’ll snap.
I just can’t take it anymore. I love him but I can’t help him. I can’t help him because he won’t help himself. If I stay with him I’ll wind up as nothing. He doesn’t want to do anything for himself and it’s dragging me down. He wants to blame me for everything that goes wrong and it’s killing me slowly. I can’t deal with this anymore.
I put my engagement ring back in the box. I’ve removed any mention of him and us from this website. Later, when I’m back home and trying to put my life back together, I’ll delete every entry in this blog up until this point. It’ll be a fresh start.
Anyway, I’m going to be busy for the next few hours skinning chewedkandi.net. Thank you Shaz, for keeping me sane with tedious work. And thank you Ben, for recommending me to Shaz. And thanks Ermina, for keeping me busy as a staffer. I need the distractions right now. If I sit here and think too much about what’s going on in my life, I’ll break down completely, and I don’t want that to happen.
I posted this on Seduced, but I’ll post it here as well. It’ll help explain things if I suddenly disappear for a few days.
I’m so tired of everything. So tired of being with a loser, someone who doesn’t want to do anything for himself. I’m so tired of being blamed for everything, for being accused of not contributing anything, for being accused of just taking and never giving. I’m tired of being told that it’s my fault, that everything is my fault.
I’m taking the advice everyone (even my own mother) has been screaming at me for the past year. When we go home for Thanksgiving break, I’m taking my things and my cats with me. However, I e-mailed my mother, so I may be back home sooner than Thanksgiving.
I’m done.
I recently realized how shitty this layout looked in Internet Explorer. Did I mention that I use Mozilla? :irked: Leave it to IE to take a perfectly working and valid layout and fuck it all up. It was totally FUBAR. :rage: I ranted, raved, and used Alea’s margin idea and fixed things. So, now this layout is not only browser-compliant, it’s IE complaint. :sarcastic: Sheesh…
See, IE does this weird thing with borders. In valid browsers, borders go on after the layer. So if there’s a layer that’s 300 pixels wide, a 25 pixel border will start at the end of the layer. Not so for IE. IE will say, okay, the layer is 300 pixels wide, here’s a 25 pixel border. We’ll start the border 25 pixels from the end, so the entire layter plus the border is only 300 pixels wide altogether. :frustrated: Damn IE…
Hello! I'm Jenn, and this is Jenn.nu, my personal blog. I'm 27 years 
